I don't know what to say. Haha. But I'm happy. I have my own life now, my friends, talagang mangangangkin ako this time. Haha. And i love my family. Weeh. Wala lang, feel ko lang silang isama ngayon.

Yeah, that's what happening to me right now. I mean, i really don't want to love the guy, he's totally a bummer for me, but what can I do? I fell inlove just like that ;( We're poles apart, he's not into me, and i know, i'm not into him. But then I realized I love him ;(

Do you understand me? Haha. I am even confused with my own story. I just feel the uncontrollable thing that so hard to forget. I can see him everyday, I can talk to him with just a snap of my hand, have a chit chat on the ym, in short, we're just having a high technological way of communicating. I like it to be on a natural way, like having a kilig moment everytime he's around or put a smile in my face everytime he's cracking nonsense jokes, not to the extent that I have to be in a place where he's hanging out with his friends.

There were times I woke up in the middle of the night thinking of him, imagining some what ifs, etc. Is love always like that? That's why I'm afraid if all of these things will happen, for I really don't know what to do. It's my first time and it's just strike me like that. Whew!

He do have a gf, that's really an awwww in my part. The first time I knew it, I was so shocked that all I can't do anything but to smile on him.

Will he even realized and know that I love him? Urggh. Hope so.